My condolences to every1 affected.

Never in my life have I experienced so many unfortunate incidents in such a short time. In the past 6 weeks, I’ve experienced 3 deaths & a scare. The scare was my mom being hospitalized due to meningitis, this is something that she goes through when she gets sick & every time she does, its life threatening but I’m glad to hear that she’s better now & was just discharged. I was so worried about her but yet angry at the same time coz I’ve told her a million times to take care of herself since I will not be around to take care of her but when she gets sick she’ll be stubborn & won’t see a Dr, all she does is take pills & sleep & the next thing you know she’ll be sent to the emergency, then she’ll make me feel guilty about it. Even though she was just joking, I sometimes wonder of I made a mistake moving overseas. I felt that I probly should have known better then to leave her to take care of herself. *sigh*

In my previous blog, I mentioned that Jess’s grandma & Russ’s dad passed away, couple of days ago, Jess’s dad left too. Even though their death doesn't affect me directly, it’s really hard to watch their close ones going through what they are going through right now. I can’t tell you how freaking frustrated it is to be in the same room with Russ & Sarah, knowing that they are hurting so bad inside & yet I can’t do a freaking thing about it. The worst of all is the 2 ppl affected most is young Rob jr & Jess, Rob jr was actually the 1 who found him dead, I wasn’t there but Russ & Sarah said he was devastated & he won't stop blaming himself. Jess is all the way in Florida but it definately didn’t affect her any less in anyway, if not more. Gosh, never in my life have I felt this helpless to the ones I love soo much.

Jess, I wish so bad that I could hold you tight right now, to lessen your pain in anyway. Rob Jr, I didn’t have the chance to get to know you better, I wish I did, but that doesn’t mean you can’t come to us for anything. Please don’t blame yourself, it’s not your fault, it’s nobody’s fault.

Remember we’re all here for yalls, if you need to talk to Uncle Russ, Aunt Sarah or me, you know how to get to us, we’re just a call away, if you’re worried about the bills, we’ll call you, we have Vonage, we can talk as long as you want. Please please please don’t distant away from us. We love you very very much.

*SUPER DUPER HUMONGOUS HUGS*